teenagedirtbag;

2006-09-28T18:09:00.000-07:00

Ugh blogger's being such a bitch i just typed in this super long entry and its just GONE i swear im going to like, stop posting any more entries here and just stick to my lj from now on.
I thought of closing this blog down but its a pity, with all the old pictures/links yadda yadda so yeah i wont.

2006-09-27T21:07:00.000-07:00

" I promise you that i'll cherish you, i wont break your heart."

Should I give in once again, let myself fall back in the web that has always bound me, that has always left me with nothing but an empty heart?
You make this heart tremble, so.

2006-09-26T15:15:00.000-07:00

This is a filipino woman who apparently killed humans and stored their flesh in her refrigerator then cooks it the way she would prepare any other meat dish.
How fucken gross i know i know but she got caught and stuff.

Wah ana so hot steam ah steamz

2006-09-25T05:37:00.000-07:00

>>From Autumn to Ashes- No Trivia

I've been up since 3.30am trying to complete my coursefuckingwork and so far i've only done my evaluation(practical) and im in such big shit this is like fucking 50% of the eoy overall you rock becky.
I want robobabies woo and a robo-maid and a robo-friend wont.it.be.so.kool. everybody should get robots in future evolution evolution then everyone will go around wearing neon green full-body suits and like it will all be so funky like look at usssss we look the same we.can.be.friends haw okay ms. kazoo put the whole idea in my head.
I tried staying awake by cooking instant noodles but it got so cold slimy and disgusting after ten minutes that i ended up eating a total of four mouthfuls so i made up for it with Honeystars (:D) honeystars are love they are brain food GO NESTLE HONEYSTARS OWNZZZ!!!1
ugh shit i want to skip school later on but someoneee over here refuses to let me stay home what a fucken twit you stupid fat thing just stick your butt to the couch and stay there like, forever or something i hate you i hate you i swear i'll call on mr. muscleman jemmaye to beat you up with a tunafish.
And damnit there's something wrong with my eyes its perpetually red/swollen maybe its really infected and has whitish worms full of pusss inside them crawling around behind my eyeballs maybe i'll go blind cri cri omg but if i do go blind i can be some blind sensation i can like, go join the blind musicians of cusco and be famous yo ho.
Get well soon neekoo you sick girl you get well soon then we can go buy some more paopaocha and go round and round and round on that roundabout thingo at the playground until we puke.

2006-09-24T20:36:00.000-07:00

Sundays, and the way they make someone feel sad.
Dont cry sweetheart youre so special you know that?
__
If I lay here, if I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world.

2006-09-22T23:28:00.000-07:00

>>>Coheed and Cambria- Blood Red Summer

I bet the weekend is going to be so ace so ace so ace today has already proved that woo.
Chilled with mr. star in town, we studied and ate chickenrice again shitzz im going to die of malnutrition all im eating is cereal and like....chickenrice ugh why you sucha pig becky.
And tomorrow is neekohlet day damn i fucken miss you neek i miss you i miss you i didnt see you much this week and the phone conversations dont really make up for it.

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Dear bestfriend,
i love you :)
and all the spastic shitass things you do like cutting your own fringe (i do that too so nevermind baby nevermind) buying me Oh's and always cheering me up and making me laugh no matter how horrible my day has been i swear i swear i love yewz so much bff i need to bake you more cookies and i promise they wont taste as bad the next time round kudozxzx

2006-09-20T19:29:00.000-07:00

>>>Ill Nino- Liar

Some fucktard stole my phone today and i was so upset, because though i dont really like having a phone i bloody need it to contact neek/leon and now its gone, plus its Jem's and i have to pay for it and its like $200?
I cant go out much now, cos i'll be giving all i have to my sister over the next few months to pay off for the phone and damn this really sucks.
Im fucking scared now, of telling my dad because he will kill me and im really not looking forward to it.
Thankyou Carol for sitting by me watching me swear/rant and letting me use your phone THANKYOU THANKYOU for getting the prepaid card for me as well THANKYOU and its pretty ace how i'll have a new number and no one can contact me except neek/leon evil laughter eviilll laughter like yeah not even hitler or my mum and like hoyeah baby this is good.
Today i realised how much i mean to you guys, and it hurts but i dont really care anyway, i've still got my bestfriend and mr. star beamz beamz

2006-09-19T22:21:00.000-07:00

Oh my lord my f&n practical test is tomorrow and its like the finals and i just found out today over lunch with Joanne like why becky why.
I have this pretty nasty feeling that im going to screw up horribly, the way it was the last practical test where my potatoes were mush and the meat didnt turn out the way it was supposed to turn out and the soup tasted like muck with uncooked vegetables thrown in.
But i swear really, i can cook i can cook i make the best instant noodles around town yo they taste so good i can go open a maggie mee shop then everyone can come and eat and i'll only charge like, $1 a bowl, plus i'll throw in a free glass of water.
My future is still bright yaphooo

2006-09-18T19:50:00.000-07:00

>>Lovedrug- Spiders

I know im screwed im fucking screwed i've missed two math lessons and two math remedials so far and the finals are coming in like three weeks and my brain refuses to be friends with math.
Not going to school today didnt help much either because i missed the stupid geog test pissoff.
On a lighter note, spending the day with neek was good and thanks love, for the polaroid and the message on the paper it was real sweet of you honestly i dont know how i would get by without you so yeah three wet kisses for you and dont forget to eat the cookies beamz beamz.
I've been pms-ing ever since i got back home and shit everyone is being so annoying i swear if one more person asks me whats wrong with me i will fucken blow up a huge balloon and prick it right in front of your stupid face and smear peanut butter and jelly all over it.
And i hate how i can feel like giving something my all, then drawing back because im scared.
Scared, all thanks to one fucking git who made me lose my trust in the opposite sex.

dear mr. star,
thankyou for being so patient with me all this while <3

2006-09-17T19:31:00.000-07:00

/edited
>>>>Finch- Post Script

Im lazy to blog about yesterday so i got this from neek's blog HEH HEH BAMBINO YO.
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Hellomoto, today was well spent :)
Bubbletea in the afternoon- we made friends with the bubbletea lady, sat around at the playground, then leon took the bus down to the studios. Bused down to holy spirit with becks (iloveyou numberone), with ivan calling to ask us to get him ice from 7-11 before walking to church. So we talked to Angel! Angel is kewlz. HA anyway we rushed to the third storey balcony cos we thought Ivan got beaten up or something cos he kept rushing us while we were peeing in the toilet 'EH WHERE ARE YOU ALL AH HURRY HURRY HURRY' so hurried and found chris ivan and francis sitting outside the church exit. Well honestly I was expecting something like blood everywhere and maybe ivan lying on the ground but all he did was to take the ice and put it in his mouth. At that point I stood there thinking KNNCCB DID HE ASK US TO GO TO FUCKING 7-11 TO GET ICE FOR HIM TO EAT or something along those lines anyway.. but apparently mr dude here pierced his lip yesterday, took out the stud, then today when he attempted to put it back he realised the hole at the back closed.
Well as you all know ivan being ivan-ivan-im-a-rockstar ivan he forced the stud through the closed hole and started bleeding like fuck. Wah, nice move ah mr cool.
YOU = DA BOMB DIGGIDY HAHA
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Aye yesterday was love, spent with my best friend(who's selling $19 chocolates now RIPOFF but it has airplanes innit or sth) and meeztah Star.
OH AND im worried ahz because we're weird we're not like other girls we eat our lipgloss we eat our paper we don't do what other nice girls do but hee we are koolz so its okay like scare the birds yo scare the birds.
Thankyou for staying up all night just because i was sick and for caring so much leon star, youre so awesome you pony boy you deserve two green m&ms i love green m&ms do you!
Didnt go for mass today but i let my mum take me to the doctors where he fucken peeled my upper eyelids up telling me i have conjunctivities haemorraghe fine i cant spell it and poked my stomach and made me feel so uncomfortable and i have i said this before? I hate doctors thanks(on the plus side i got an MC for tomorrow but i dont know if i should stay home because of the frickin geog test).

To Neek: AYE YOU CHICK YOU i must keeez you one million timez when i see you next (tomorrow?)
We'll go to candy empire and get more apple strings because they.are.kewl.

Charm's mum made the gold chain thing for neek like tsuhrf its so pretty.

the woman who makes the best paopaocha in singapore woo

meeztah star.

kool socks yo

2006-09-15T22:30:00.000-07:00

>>>Plain White T's- Fireworks

It rained after school again today like yesterday and the day before and the day before and the day before okay fine maybe not but it rained today anyway and thankyou Nizar for giving me a ride back home both today and yesterday (free taxi rides are awesome ha).
Met up with #1 and Mr. Star and attempted to study but it didnt really work because we all pretty much just stoned around but it was fun nevertheless, eating paper with neek, seeing sexy old people, wanting to keeez neek because the lomantic candles were so lomantic, watching Leon smile ha how nice, oui? OUI.
Bus-ed to bugis with leon after, chilled and stuff.
Thanks for the day, neek YOU DA BOMB YO and meeeztah Leon Star :]

I love fridays i love fridays i love fridays aye im going to call #1 now have a nice friday night, ya'll.

2006-09-14T21:07:00.000-07:00

I feel sad when she does.
Seeing how sad she was today, how she was almost about to cry, it sort of drove me wild inside.

2006-09-14T06:26:00.000-07:00

>>>Benton Falls- Swimming With You

So yesterday was with good company at the studio+studying+skipping school+something special (ha neek) :D
Ah well its back to skewl today, how nice i get to learn new things and see all the wonderful beautiful people, watch my nails grow and go through shit lessons till 2.15 like duisusie i cant wait.
Meeting #1 after school to study and EY NEEK YANG WE BETTER STUDY because we always end up talking/laughing/camwhoring and then all the feeble attempts to revise will fail and we'll go OKAY TMRW TMRW WE STUDY but the same thing happens ghahashhad but I Loike ;)
I woke up at five to finish up my english holiday homework and my summary was total nonsense but ugh whatever i cant do the journal entry either because i have no idea where it is in my room like i swear everything that goes missing in my room is never ever found because its so darn messy and everytime my maid cleans it up i just seem to mess it up again.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
And the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds
You let this one person come down for the most perfect moment
And it breaks my heart to know, the only reason, you are here now is, a reminder
of what I'll never have
I'll never have
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in, standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in
But this table for one has become bearable
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you
Just say that you would do the same for me

2006-09-11T19:54:00.000-07:00

>>>The Hush Sound- Weeping Willow

Neek and I are lesbianzx ha joke. -looks at neek
Anyway school was like full of shit i hate mondays i hate mondays angst because the first day of the week always sucks okay not really first day first day because isnt sunday counted as the first day urgh whatever anyway plus its the first day of school after seven days like why why why why i want to quit school now okay no i dont i need to finish my o's but ahhh you get the picture!
Met #1 and headed to raffles place for lunch and damn my legs are all sore now because we walked from suntec to fucken kampong glam with all the sexy sexy men in black keeping watch over the area HA NEEK SO SEXY WITH THE CAPS AND ALL.
Anyway we kind of got lost thanks to my brilliant idea of lets just walk hereeee neek and okay, becks!
Imagine: there's like 16000 of the richest people in the world in singapore now like ugh ugh ugh lets go raid their rooms at night at the swissotel or maybe we can dress up and pretend to be chefs/musicians then we can go make friends with them HI MY NAME IS LOLA WHATS YOURRRSSS MISTER RICHGUY :D ah shitz i want to be rich i want money so who's willing to contribute to becky's get rich fund! i promise i will love you like diamonds and stars and ha whatever $$$$$
It was fun though, flagging down cabs (okay fine so there wasnt any due to the stupid road block) but we were along like, beach road by then and we got a stupid taxi at this weird ass place filled with filipinos and workers and shit.
Candy empire is the sex i almost died looking at all the chocolates and gummies and licorice and ha ARE YOU DROOLING NOWZ.
Yami yoghurt is good shit i havent eaten it in over two or three months i.want.more.
Anyway okay i heart you neek yang lesbian shiat xoXoxXoXxoXo (go watch nacho libre you'll get what i mean)

2006-09-10T17:38:00.000-07:00

Just found out stuff about this certain asshole.
I cant believe how dumb I was not to see through you before ugh i deserve a slap in the face.
Well I do now though, i see you, and how happy we might be.
Thankyou Aejay for clearing stuff up with me :]
& dear besto,
Dont be sad because its really not worth it darling. Becky loves you! #1, Forever and a day always.

2006-09-10T12:21:00.000-07:00

With all due respect, Miss Know-It-All, go stuff yourself because youre just pathetic and it irks me how sad your life is that you have to do all the shit that you do, sad sad sad and if you think its actually making me feel scared of you, think again.
Today morning was such a whore we had to wake up so feckin early and i had to practically peel my eyelids and i was half-awake all the way till mass started and that was even worse thank god for my sister's company or i.would.have.died.
My Mae playlist has been on repeat ever since i started using the kompeutarh damn mae is love mae is love mae is love EMBERS WE'RE BURNIN BRIDGES DOWN OUR ENVELOPES STUFFED WITH FEELINGS FOUND TO WRITE THIS DOWN AS MEANS TO RECONCILE *kisses sexy black speakers

Ha yesterday was fun because me neek and ivan were such bitchygalz like neek is bitch#1 im bitch #2 ivan is bitch #3 like neek says : AWMAGAH he's such a whore for a boy and anyway it was good constructive bitching so all's good.
So i swapped phones with jem who looks pretty good with his shiny shiny shiny bald head now, no? And he left all his messages/pictures in the phone so ugh i feel like im intruding on my sister's boyfriend's personal space but ha i can stalk you jemmy boy hoowee lets all dance naked under grey skies with pink ribbons in our hair.
& school is starting tomorrow and im so screwed because i didnt study at all and i didnt even touch my coursework fugger okay i have excuses for not doing my homework ha 1)my uncle died 2)my pen died 3)my dog died(okay scrap that i love my dog to bits) 4) I died 5)Its against my religion 6)shit happens. miracles take a little longer.
HOW KEWLZ and i really want this striped black and white jacket from topman yeah okay topman shutup but its so gorgeous and its 70 bucks but ughhh i also want this white and green jacket which is well over a hundred so im going to start saving no more splurging on cereal and milk becky(yeah i pay for my cereal cos my mum refuses to, at the rate i finish it)

Enjoy the rest of the weekend you've got left kids because its back to school tomorrow yo ho.

2006-09-09T19:31:00.000-07:00

>>Copeland- Take Care

I skipped catechism today ha bad girl becky bad girl but it was all good because it was with good company.
Met couhzenn and got him his fags and the woman didnt ask for my age so like what kind of service was that huh huh huh selling cigs to young kids ho you bad woman, you.
Chilled with francis (i adore your jacket damnit), ivan and bosco who painted his nails red like doood your color coordination is very bad dey ha it shoulda been black i swear red nails dont work on guys tuhrsur.
So the day was all good (except for the fact that miss neek yang was in marine parade and didnt come) and ey i <3 teh chino WOO TEH CHINO thumbs up for teh chino baby.
So its the 9th and there's like 19 more days till im 15 and ugh im so not looking forward to it because wont it suck when you cant have the one thing you want the most and youre reminded of whispers of love and promises of bright days to come, days which never will now.
Frickin asswipe i hate you i hate you i hate you i wish i could turn back time okay fine like who doesnt but if i could i'll stop myself from being the biggest prick ever and i wouldnt make the same mistake again.

2006-09-08T20:17:00.000-07:00

>>>Imogen Heap-Goodnight and Go

I spent quality time with the tv the whole day wow i probably screwed up my eye even more ha how smart, becky.
Eastenders, Barney, Sg Idol reruns shit what a loser, The Addams Family and Oliver Twist were pretty good company though i proved to myself what a horrible slob i was but it was better than going out looking like some distorted shit with one eye bigger than the other wasnt it so yay for tellytime y'all.
I think Mark thinks im the weirdest godsister in the whole wide world because we dont talk to/see each other for ages and ages, then I randomly call him after midnight while he's sleeping and start laughing hysterically on the phone for no fucken reason gah sorry mark you know i love you and i just wanted to check if you were still alive damnit and send my loooove to david and godma if you read this okay [:
There's cat class tomorrow and i pray i pray i pray that the swelling will go down(it might it just might cos its better than it was in the morning kisses for ice-packs) or i'll wear shades or use a lot of concealer okay hold that thought i dont own concealer ha so nevermind.
Oh and i'll be skipping the icc tomorrow because like dude im not going to waste my trackpants even though they were dead budget and shoes walking around some swamp picking up tyres and ragged dolls and other rubbish getting mud all over myself and coming out stinking like poo.
Besides its such a waste of a saturday morning isnt it and i'd much rather be home in bed or reading or something.
Im watching videos of twochineseboys now(thanks to neek :D) and im laughing my non-existent balls off like i mean its seriously the most spastic shit ever like you da bomb dormitory boys you da bomb.

2006-09-07T21:48:00.000-07:00

Paul paul paul see how you made all your minah magnets cry like someone died, bawling bawling bawling *chants* twohill! twohill! twohill! AHDAddhs okay will shutup.
Met #1 today for duckrice and goreng pisang(like ew neek banana dipped in oil) and look at this.

This was after she used the same straw to suck up the soup like NEEK YANG HOW GROSS CAN YOU GET ha ha fine i did it as well but it was under your influence tsk tsk see how you corrupt young innocent girls hawhaw.
Went back to her place to watch hard gay HARDEH GAYE HOOOOOO and his pelvic thrusts which is just sad. SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD AYE I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND MISTER HARD GAY :)
Anyway my left eye started hurting real bad after the swings and damn its all red and i keep tearing and dang i dont want to look like oh my boyfriend just broke up with me im depressed im depressed so ugh im covering it with tissue and its so.annoying.

CEREAL CEREAL i've been eating so much of it like wuhshue i can be Nestle's number one fan hoooo i want to grooow i want to grow grow grow.
Cicada
Sing like it was afternoon already

2006-09-06T20:21:00.000-07:00

Took away my tagboard because i got irritated by it I DONT KNOW WHY but my comment box is there.

Facts About You
1. Name: becky
2. Middle Name: noelle( noel, noeeel, noel, born is the king of israel i know its dumb shutup)
3. Location: the crib
4. Place of Birth: majulah singapura ha ha whatever
5. dumb qns
6. Male or Female: female sadly
9. Occupation: student
10. Initials: RNF ?

Your Appearance :

11. Hair Color : black-brownish
12. Hair Length: around my shoulders a bit above ah shit i dont know havent let it down much
13. Best Feature: im tanned yay me
14. Height: 162.5
15. Glasses: contacts
19. Shoe size: 5
20. Weight: NOT NECESSARY

Your Firsts

21. Best friend: i think it was this girl who picked her nose all the time marilyn or something
22. Award: it was this swimming thingo
23. Sport You Joined: swimming
24. Thing you did today: i went back to sleep
25: Thing you ate today: uh i ate cereal in the evening
26. Thing you said today: get your butt off the bed (to ginny she stayed over)
27. Love: i used to have the biggest crush on this weird guy with oily hair HAHA i know shutup

Favorites
28. Movie: dont get me started
29. TV Show: i like my wife and kids COS ITS FUNNEH
30. Color: black
32. Rock Band: wuhrsrshr
33. Place to get groceries: any supermarket besides my mum gets it
34. Food: right now its cereal and ey SAMBAL STINGRAY SAMBAL STINGRAY !1
35. Season: autumn
36. Candy: i like gummy worms.worms are cool
37. Sport: swimming
38. Restaurant: this isnt fair
39. Animal: dogs & bunnies okay mainly dogs because the only bunnies i like are smoochie and cherub
40. Book: dont get me started i swear
41. Magazine: Cleo?I dont really read magazines now

Currently

42. Doing before you started this survey: talking to aejay and eating cereal and listening to Mew
43. Thinking: im eating too much cereal
44. Wearing: school PE shirt ha ha loser
45. Crying bout: not crying
46. Eating: CEREAL DAMNIT
47. Drinking: milk
48. Typing: -
49. Listening To: Mew- Snowflake
50. Thinking about: why girls get their period shit its not fair
51. Wanting: MONEY money thankyou
52. Watching: -

Future
53. Where do you see yourself in 5 years: Finishing my diploma yay
54. Kids: it would be nice
55. Want to be Married: maybe HI RYAN GOSLING(dont know why i fancy him he looks weird)
56. Career in Mind: I want a nice job which brings along money yes money

--left out this part its about the opposite sex and im not interested thanks.--

Have You Ever

73. Kissed a Stranger: yeah bhahahahah
74. Had surgery: it'll be kewlzxxzzx
75. Gone commando: uh
76. Ran Away From Home: yeah but it was less than 24 hours so not counted
77. Broken a bone: :D i want to break my leg/arm
78. Got an X-ray: ooh bones
79. Been on a cruise: yep its nice
80. Got a car accident: yeah NOT VERY NICE
81. Dumped someone: shutup
82. Cried When Someone Died: yeah
83. Cried At School: yeah

Do You Believe In

84. God: mmh yes
85. Miracles: maybe
86. Love at First Sight: no its stupid
87. Ghosts: WELLLL
88: Aliens: hawhaw
89. Soul Mates: no not really maybe ugh i dont know
90. Heaven: no
91. Hell: no
92. Answered prayers: maybe
93. Kissing on The First Date: mhm
94. Horoscopes: bull
95. & Lastly...Is there someone you wish you had?: dont we all.

2006-09-06T18:06:00.000-07:00

Ryan Gosling is so sexy in The Notebook(without his beard and moustache at least).
Went to town with Miss Pang today to get her hair curled at Hairrods and dang its so pretty I want curls too urgjhjfdkf but I think too much makes you look like freaking Goldilocks or something so no. (ginny you look nice okay stop whining already its driving me c-r-a-z-y)
Fucken headaches are coming back and im so pissed because i tried sleeping it away and it didnt work and its killed my appetite as well so even the slightest smell of food coming from the kitchen is making me feel like gagging now like urgh gross.
Anyway I cant wait for tomorrow to come (!!!!!!!) because I havent seen you in so long, numberone even though we're going to end up stoning somewhere again pfftfsds but I Loike :]

2006-09-05T22:15:00.000-07:00

>>Mew- Snowflake

The sea always has warped calming effects on people(okay fine maybe its just me) so all you stressed-out-over-exams people go jump in the sea and ease all the tension away ghsjfhdjf :D
Ginny's staying over today and she's being such a spastic moron HELP SOMEBODY SAVE ME
okay maybe maybe i can stuff toothpaste into her bra at night(oh wait she doesnt wear one when she's sleeping) MUHUHHAHAHA bye

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Watch this its SO FUNNEH
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X881waRMs18

2006-09-04T23:39:00.000-07:00

Cherub was sick the whole of yesterday.
He refused to eat or drink anything and his neck was somehow twisted and he couldnt move his left legs.
We were pretty upset because he was just fine the day before and the only person who could have done anything was our maid.
My sister wrapped him in a towel and she had to force feed him water and he drooled everything out.
He started having fits and died at 2.30am .....fuck, he was just a bunny.
These are pictures of cherub before he got sick yesterday:

cherub & smoochie

& after he died....sugar was really sad and she just lay beside him whining in that soft undertone the way dogs do when theyre sad.

I miss you, baby bunbun.

2006-09-03T15:19:00.000-07:00

>>Daphne Loves Derby- The Longest Story

Letting go of someone that is makes up the most of your life so the person is happy, praying the person will be happy, its a bitter feeling all mixed up with disappointment and sadness and anger and you cant do anything about it except wait for brighter days to come.
I wish you the best of luck and thank you ..for making my wish come true, even if it was only for a little while.
Im moving on because there are still a lot of happy things out there like my best friend and my bunbuns and hot fudge and everything else hwarhusheduhd okay :]
The sky is pretty today.
Im feeling a double hot fudge banana split, lounging around in the pool under the sun sun sun, maybe a run after.
Which is what im going to be doing for the whole of this afternoon i guess, then i'll come back home and sleep till ...tomorrow. UGH YOU ARE SUCH A PIG BECKY.
I want to be a place where everytime you breathe, a wish comes true

2006-09-02T13:24:00.000-07:00

Two cans of redbull, a great book, Smashing Pumpkins make up a perfect lazy Saturday morning.
Hitting the gym BURN SOME CALORIES WOOT and the pool later but right now, I wish I were Sorcha, seventh child of the seventh son, daughter of the forest, madly in love with my warlord.

Cupid hath pulled back his sweetheart's bow,
to cast divine arrows into her soul
To grab her attention swift and quick,
or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick
With turpentine kisses and mistaken blows

2006-09-01T20:22:00.000-07:00

I love days when there isnt any school okay like fine who doesnt HEH HEH.
but its better when the day is spent with my numero uno, oui? :-)
Went to cityhall and ate at ThaiExpress like urgh i wasted money on disgusting thinly-sliced mango(the hard part at the bottom) which was coated in sour-sauce, chilli and peanuts and served with friggin' lettuce so note to everybody DONT EAT THEN YAN MAMUANG if thats how its spelt AT THAI EXPRESS OKAY.
Headed off to the esplanade for some Haagen Dazs (:D) and studying(neek did anyway) & aaron came for awhile to EMO like hahaha whatever aaron, plus he gave me and neek tOtaLly kEwlzx yellow ribbon stuff.
Went to look for violin scores at the library after that before heading home and damn my dad's being such an asswipe because he's not letting me go to GasHaus to watch battle of the bands arghgh i hate you i hate you.

Neek is so pretty :]

Hi Aaron I think youre so kEwlzxzx HAHA

& HAHA neek made me do this!

How spastic rebecca. :D

Wah hi im cheena

HAWHAW cant pull it off whatever bye

2006-08-31T08:31:00.000-07:00

>>Secondhand Serenade- Awake

Marymount has changed so much and its not the same anymore( what was i expecting anyway) like they have fucken swings everywhere and vending machines with nuts and milo and all fine.
Met Ms. Schoonbeck who told us about next year's 50th anniversary dinner at the Shangri-La Hotel but damn its friggin $120.
Met Jaime, Sarah, Petrina, Catherine, Alexis, Krithee, Celeste & Celia!
shit everybody looked so different(!) and petrina is so fucken thin its really scary like HI PETS please put some meat on those bones you sex-obsessed girl.
Catching up and laughing over all the stupid things we used to do like the time i got mad at sarah for cutting my with her penknife and how eunice made us all fight over her powerpuff girls figurines and collecting pokemon cards and forming the potter fan club and all that shit ha ha okay I was a very weird child (and still am).

Picked up the cake at jeight before heading home and arghghg i looked like such a doofus carrying it and everyone was staring for some stupid reason and i swear i felt like kicking this asswipe standing in front of me in the balls, dig his eyes out or something (insert evil laughter here).
Roast chicken+potatoes, yummoh.
Happy birthday......daddy.

2006-08-30T20:02:00.000-07:00

>>>Copeland- California

I have a major issue with coursefuckingwork im just going to continue pissing lam off because I havent really completed anything yet and damn this is really pissing me off.
My computer is being such a bitch because my dumb pop-up/ad blocker isnt working for some reason and there are constant casino ads popping up and like hell who would be interested in fake moneymaking schemes advertised by girls in skanky outfits with big boobs anyway.

Hung out at neekoo's place after school and thanks for helping with my f&n numberone you know becky loves you :D
Oh & there's PE tomorrow and im so not looking forward to running around the field like an idiot playing pointless games under the burning sun so im acting sick and my mom actually believes me so she's going to write me an excuse letter HHAHAHAHA (:
I really want to skip school tomorrow because its teachers' day and all we'll be doing is watching stupid people go on the stupid stage and bore the hell out of everybody but we'll be getting our term reports back and i cant miss that now can i so GAH hello school.
AND MY SCHOOL IS SO FUCKEN RETARDED BECAUSE IT ONLY ENDS AT ONE WHEN ALL THE OTHER SCHOOLS END AT 10 OR SOMETHING.
How nice.

Charmayne is kewlxzxz :]
take heed, dear heart

2006-08-29T18:15:00.000-07:00

>>>Secondhand Seranade- The Last Song Ever

I swear maple syrup does wonders to my immune system because i've been a sick girlie the past few days and now like phuawrdsd zoom zoom im feeling all good again and yes who likes being sick anyway HAWHAWHAW.
Got my contacts after school like shit thank god because my current ones are all icky and scratchy and they become dry so fast and they make my eyes feel tired all the time and I want to bloody sue the stupid company or something for not manufacturing quality lenses ha.

Mmh yeah teachers' day is coming and I cant wait to go back to mcs.
Okay fine so all the teachers I used to know are gone and everyone there is different so there's no point but im mainly going back to see everybody LIKE PETRINA FOR EXAMPLE god i miss that girl and the shitass things we used to do like play spies and form the potty fan club and do the naked man dance (GAHHAHAHAHA) and stuff.

& today was such a pissoff because of one certain person LIKE HELLO LADY stop being such a total bitch because its not making me scared of you if thats what youre pathetically trying to get at.
Cheeseballs are teh sex and AYE I WANT TO GO COMPLETE MY BLOODY F&N NOW (not that i'll be able to finish it by tomorrow. fine maybe if im lucky enough) so eat your greens everybody bye

dear heart, i miss the way you squish my cheeks

2006-08-28T17:16:00.000-07:00

Goodbye, ruby tuesday.

HI NKYDS

2006-08-27T18:52:00.000-07:00

You sit up in the dark for hours thinking of one special person every night.
You smother your whole pillow with tears.
Because all thats left is disappointment.
for someone to wrap you in his arms and whisper words of love and promises and shower kisses all over your face to make everything seem alright again.

2006-08-26T22:54:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>Sugarcult-Bouncing Off The Walls Again

Books, food & good company are a brilliant combination.
Met joanne around 12-ish today, got books and a band, then we just sat around talking and reading and sharing a pepperoni cheese dog :)
Headed down to church after for ISP mass and damn, the skit was so funny! (especially gretch)
Icekimo after with neek, nat, manda, lou and nessa.
Rootbeer floats and nutella icecream with #1 was awesome.

Neek was so reeetarded today i swear.
We(neek, nessa & me) bus-ed down to town and walked around for 20 minutes tops before neek got pissed with her and nessa's ISP shirt( GAHAHAAHAHA) so we went all the way back to bishan.
Dinner at Ajisen was hilarious.
We bitched about almost everything and made stupid jokes that kept us laughing and laughing, till the staff there got really annoyed.
Plus we stayed there for so long.
Gee, we didnt meeean to annoy you mister-manager-of-ajisen :D
Neek and Nessa watched My Super Ex-Girlfriend and i got home(why hello hitler) around ten.
IM SO TIRED NOW AND WAH IM STUFFED.
I could so use some caffeine now.

dear heart,
i prayed today.
you like it when i pray, dont you?
well, i prayed for you.

2006-08-25T21:10:00.000-07:00

>>>>Saosin- Hopeless Believing

This week has passed by just like that and damn it feels like life is going way, way too fast.
I MEAN IT SEEMS LIKE JUST YESTERDAY EVERYONE LEFT FOR OBS AND NOW THEYRE ALL BACK (AND BLACK).
I want some genius remote that i can just click on and ZOOM HI DIAPEY RASH.
Ginny+joanne came over after school and we just got wasted watching old movies and videos and shit.
I miss you, numero uno >):

OKAY ITS FRIDAY AGAIN yay.
Cant wait to see neek, charm and everyone at isp mass(the mass part im not looking forward to) and catching up :)
& thankyou l* for NOTICING I GET LONELY but your jokes arent exactly very funnnneh.
Five cans of redbull down, hello weekend.

dear heart, i see you everywhere

2006-08-24T04:50:00.000-07:00

Calling all angels

2006-08-23T22:14:00.000-07:00

Bus rides that never end and dim streetlights,
Walking down a deserted road and shoving dead scattered leaves with your old sneakers
Looking up at the sky every now and then, listening to nature in itself.
Recollecting the times spent together and shivering, shivering with a sudden overwhelming loneliness, a longing, a longing to listen to that heartbeat again.
Dear heart, please stay, please not forget, please not ever forget

2006-08-22T20:17:00.000-07:00

Everytime i see you falling,
I get down on my knees and pray
Waiting for that final moment when you say the words that i cant say

They say, letting it all out will make you feel better.
I did, I did.
So how come im not feeling any better yet?
How come im still waiting for something that might never happen again, and god, it hurts like hell.

I ripped ginny's shirt today HEH HEH HEH HEH sorry.
Oh and Joy Luck Club (thanks #1) & Now You See Me are really awesome books.
Lesley Glaister is wonderful :)
So yeah, im just about starting on one by Camilla Gibb.
Ah.
I cant seem to stop reading damnit but its good really, its a whole other world i get lost in and forget all this shit happening around.
SO LIKE READ EVERYBODAYE READ READ READ.
HAHAHAHAH
BAHDHAHD
fuck i was pretty hyper the whole of today and its all thanks to the sugar overdose!
Plus i passed my physics! Balls :D
AND IM STARTING TO SEE THIS CERTAIN PERSON everywhere and its bloody scary.
butterflies in a bottled mind
dear heart, i miss you so
Breathe, becky, breathe.

2006-08-21T22:52:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>Goldfrapp- Tiptoe

Moo icecream does wonders IT MAKES BECKY A HAPPY KID phuarwahr okay.
So who will buy me more moo icecream!
ITS ONLY EIGHTYCENTS AND I'LL LOVE YOU, FOREVER :D
School was all schmuck lets not go there, pissoff.
Okay weiyang+hanafi killed any desire i had at all for running tonight with their 7th month pontianak pochong getting stuck in the lift getting raped by some bangladeshi worker falling and getting hurt getting followed by spirits becoming crazy YADDA YADDA YADDA.
Thanks ah, both of you.
OKAY I FEEL DAMN GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH NOW.
I LOVE YOU NEEK :)
I LOVE YOU KECIK AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)
I LOVE YOU(you, the one im still holding on to)

2006-08-20T14:01:00.000-07:00

>>>AVA- Take The Stairs

I fucking hate my dad.
Just because he's in a bad mood and my mom walked off, he just drove off without me and my sister.
He told us to fucking walk home from church, which is bloody far.
Fine.
Then when my mom was about to get lunch, he was like like "Rebecca im not going to ask you what you want"
So i asked him why, and guess what he said?
"Because youre full of shit."
Fuck you, daddy.

ARGHGHG whatever.
Going to meet leon now, bye.

2006-08-19T23:19:00.000-07:00

>>>>Goblin- Profondo Rosso

E! Entertainment is oddly addictive.
Plastic surgery does change a lot in a person i guess.

Anyway!
Met neek(HI #1) and went to penin, and we got shirts and stuff before i had to go off to novena.
Damn, i rushed all the way for nothing, because we ended up hitting the massage chairs at Clove instead.
Haha eh I WANT AN OSIM MASSAGE CHAIR WHO'S WILLING TO CONTRIBUTE TO BECKY'S MASSAGE CHAIR FUND! (:
Duckrice at Longhouse after was good, and my mum baked cheesecake again!
Which means im going to put on like 10 kg.

& i just told neek how i want to break an arm or a leg because my life is so boring!
DKSJDkl
fdsf
sd
WHATEVER BYE

& this is raphael+sugar+moo :)

These tears you cry are falling rain

2006-08-18T23:23:00.000-07:00

>>>>Coheed and Cambria- Wake Up

Prata+Icekimo with #1= <3

OH AND NOTE TO ALL :

Dont ever mix cotton candy with maggie mee.
It makes you feel bad.

So i was wondering,
if you still realise that I exist
that im waiting for something
Anything,
to happen.

2006-08-17T16:26:00.000-07:00

Its rainy days like these
When I __ you the most

2006-08-16T20:24:00.000-07:00

>>>>>Goldfrapp- Tiptoe

F&N paper sucked so bad.
Anyway...chem was fun because weisiong tried capturing this ant-like thing with feelers and extra stuff(whatever you call it) on its body and he put it into his stupid chess box and told me he'll feed it at home.
I was like uhhhh okay, weisiong.
Good that he got rid of it though i swear i hate small icky things that crawl around, especially when theyre on my table.
Haha :D

Icecream with the girls after school, then it was off to town to meet #1.
Like she said, its been really long(fine one week but thats not the point).
Got her retainers done (EEEEEEEE YUCK) at Mt. Elizabeth, then pepperlunch+famous amos.
Plus the usual catching up and talking about absolutely everything (okay maybe more about stripey and stud EH NEEKOO BOTH START WITH THE LETTER S) was the best part of my day.
Talked to Ryan on the way home and told him about the lalas going on.
Thanks for listening, ryan.
Okay im going back to studying for geog now.
Arghghghghg i wish i had a photographic memory or something then i can mentally snap a picture of the pages im supposed to study for in my mind and remember everything tomorrow.
HAHA whatever.

finding my own words, my own little stage
my own epic drama, my own scripted page
send me the rough draft, i'll seal it with tears
maybe you'll read it and i'll disappear
from the start it was shaky & the characters rash
a nice setting for heartache where emotions come lst
now all that I have thats deep inside are friendly intentions
and fair weathered smiles.
<33 you nicolette yang :]

2006-08-15T10:19:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>Tori Amos- Silent All These Years

WAH PHYSICS PAPER WAS ONE MAJOR HEADACHE I SWEAR.
For starters, i couldnt remember anything weeking taught me, so heck.(thanks for the help though)
Anyway my morning was pretty screwed.
My sister fetched me home after the paper so yeah, here i am rotting my ass off in the living room.
Lying on the sofa with the stupid laptop in front of me, watching TRL(:D) and eating cotton candy.
& i need to study for tomorrow's f&n, damn.
Urgh i feel like throwing up now so im going to stop here.
Bye assholes

the rain wouldnt stop falling.lightning streaked the paling sky again and again.
there he was, walking to school. there he was,crossing the road. i was in the car heading right for him & my repeated screams to stop were of no use.
then it hit him, i hit him, and his body crumpled into a heap on the wet ground.
my loud cries filled the empty street as i held him close, and looked into his lifeless eyes.
i held him close, grieving for that beautiful boy so dear to me.
Im glad nightmares aren't real

2006-08-14T14:58:00.000-07:00

>>>>Coheed & Cambria-A Favour House Atlantic

Had stupid Math CA today.
And weiru passed me her germies so im sick as well, now.
THANKS AH TANG WEIRU
>:(
_____________________________________________
Behind your sealed eyes you miss
Everything, everything.
Bye bye beautiful
I still love you

2006-08-13T13:56:00.000-07:00

i've been watching your world from afar
i've been trying to be where you are
& i've been secretly falling apart
Unseen
to me, youre strange and youre beautiful
sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
sometimes the first thing you want never comes
but I know that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes

"becky"
"mhm?"
"i love you"
"...i love you, too"

"i'll never leave you"
"promise?"
"promise"

2006-08-12T14:00:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wonder if we're to blame
There's a lying in your silence

2006-08-11T14:35:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>Hanson- Yearbook

I wasted five hours in school today.
The SS paper was alright but i didnt get to finish it in time, so im just hoping i get a pass.
We got two free periods after recess so that was spent mostly listening to music and sleeping.

& hey you, i seriously think you should learn how to speak properly without vulgarities spewing out of your mouth with every sentence because its bloody uncouth.
Having to stand you and your constant sarcasm everyday isnt making my life any easier, either.
And damn, you probably wouldnt understand this even though i know you'll read it, so what the heck.

Pictures from yesterday! (i stole from neekoo, ha)

#1

My coconut & h-o-t neek :D

I was taking neek's peeecture then she used charm's camera and took mine \: (or was it the charm instead. gah.)

& this *drumroll is Ivan at Chips :D
HAHAH SORRY LAH BUT I THINK YOU LOOK DAMN FUNNY IN THE TWO PEECTURES

OH AND I BLEW UP FIVE BALLLOOONNNSS ALREADY.
HOW CAN ANYONE NOT LOVE BALLOONS :D (wah i feel like bursting one now HEH HEH okay shutup becks)

Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
there are three people standing in front of a magic mirror which gives you anything you desire if you tell it the truth, but disappears if you lie. the first person to talk to the mirror was a very fat brunette. she walked up to th mirror and said "i think i am the thinnest person in the world." and poof, the mirror gobbled her up : D the next person to come up to the mirror was a very ugly red he
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
ad. she told th mirror "i think i am the prettiest person in the worlddd" and poof, the mirror gobbled her up. lastly came the blonde. she walked up to the mirror and said "i think..." and poof, the mirror gobbled her up.
; adidas.com says:
thats all?
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
yessss dont you get it ):
; adidas.com says:
not really
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
dumb blondes dont think
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
they are thatt dumb
; adidas.com says:
OH
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
GAH whatever no fun lah you ):
; adidas.com says:
ha ha ha ha
; adidas.com says:
eh its your joke not funny please
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
BYE
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
BYE
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
BYE IM GONNA TALK TO MY DOG NOW
; adidas.com says:
LOL
; adidas.com says:
NOW I KNOW WHY YOU NEEDA GO COUNSELLING
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
!
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
OIY
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
KLDskldasl;k;a
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
>):
; adidas.com says:
hahaha
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
WAH I DONT LIKE YOU
; adidas.com says:
kidding la
; adidas.com says:
but whats there to talk
Flickt { We could be more than just amazing says:
eh .. i talk to her everyday
; adidas.com says:
oh yah
; adidas.com says:
help me pass a msg to your dog
; adidas.com says:
ask him/her how's life without colors

WAHHH DAMIEN TAN IS DAMN IRRITATING >):

REJECTED CHILDRENS BOOK TITLES:
1. Juggling Knives is Easy
2. Where to Find the toys in the Oven
3. Where Mommy & Daddy Hide Neat Things
4. Kick, Scream, and Cry to Get What You Want
5. "Whatcha' Doin'" the Wonderful Phrase
6. 101 Games to Play in the Road
7. The Indoor Pool is a Big Potty and the Divingboard is the Flusher
8. Homemade Fireworks using a Bathtub,a Blowdryer,and a Fork
9. POP, goes the Hamster and other fun Microwave Games
10. Arthur Gets Hunted
11. Clifford and the Big and Yellow Semi
12. Monsters Killed Grandpa
13. The hit sequel to "Elvis is your real dad" Mrs.Clause is your real Mom
14. Chicken Poop for the Kid Soul
15. All Guns Squirt Water
16. When The Garbage Truck Came to Sesame Street
17. How Fun it is to Tie a Squirrel to a Kite
18. You Can Get Sucked Down the Drain
19. How to Make Sushi with Ordinary Goldfish
20. 101 recipies to make with Dog
21. If its Storming out the Best Place to keep shelter is under a tree
22.The New Boy is Bad
23. Your Nightmares are real
24. The Time When Elmer REALLY got Bugs
25. Scooby Doo Gets Rabbis
26. The Lion, the Steak, and the Blender
27. The Little Kitten that was too Curious.....
28. The Boy who was so Stupid that his Dad put him up for Adoption
29. Mickey Mouse and the Mouse Trap
30. Chuck E. Cheese and Cheddar get a Flamethrower
31. Grampa Gets A Casket
32. Dad's New Wife Robert
33. The Magical World Inside The Abandoned Refridgerator

LIKE HAHAHAHHAHAHA BAAHAHDHADHAHDAHD
BYE

----
Do you hear this heart cry
Do you hear it calling
Begging

2006-08-10T21:57:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>Hanson- If Only

Singapore Idol is bloody irritating.
Its a singing competition, but everyone gets in based on popularity.
Rahimah shouldn't have been out tonight!
Argh whatever.
So time spent with Charm and Neek was good shit :)
Camwhored a whole lot. Heh.
But eeeh charm keeps telling me how retarded i am which i am NOT hello!
(so I thought the last cabin of the mrt was the first! NEH)
I think i grossed them out at lunch HAHA.
I kept going on about how the green tea looks and tastes like urine.
Green tea from Ajisen sucks everybody, so dont drink it.
Spent like ten plus at Artfriend on balloons (GAH im going to blow them up and leave them around my room so i can burst them one by one when i feel like shit :D), and stuff for drawing.
& on this white top and some more food.......... shit okay i better stop buying things on impulse.

Anyway.
Train ride home with my numero uno was fab.
( #1, forever and a day always. )
AND OKAY SS TEST TOMORROW!
Damn.
Hitler is being feckin irritating again because he wont let me out tomorrow.
Sorry neekoo >):

These tears have run dry
So dry,
so dry

2006-08-09T15:27:00.000-07:00

Fucking lies, fucking lost my trust in you.
I spoke to her and clarified everything.
Who do you expect me to believe now?
Its two against one, damnit it, damn you.
Bloody hell,
i agree.
You're not worth getting angry over.
Die, asshole, die.

UGH its okay i still have two men in my life.
Ben, and Jerry.
HAHAHAHA shit fuck i feel like fuck now damnit bye

All things gold never last

"The Lord giveth; The Lord takes away"

2006-08-08T22:10:00.000-07:00

Stab deep
again, again and again
We've only got one lifetime,
Why cant you make up your mind
When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
Words to hide your other loss
Words that made me feel special, for a little while
I'll love you,
forever and a day always
but I cannot trust now
I cannot fucking be so naive now
Thankyou, for making this heart turn to stone
I should have seen it coming
Have you always been this way?
Why God,
Why do you keep taking everything away from me?
Best friends, my angel, my father's love, my little bits of happiness every now and then, my life
Why do you think i strayed away from you?
This world is black,
& hearts are cold

and to a certain girl who thinks she's all that.
stop trying so hard
stop feeling so insecure,
to the extent of creating a world of imaginary friends

2006-08-08T17:15:00.000-07:00

>>>>Train- Calling All Angels

I've had the most perfect afternoon, the first in a really long time.
It made up for the dumb morning in the school.
Lazing around town with Ginny was good.
Ajisen Ramen+Books,books & more books (:
I got a fab new notebook with brown old pages.

The walk home was pretty.
I couldnt bear to take the bus back when everything was this good.
Oh yes and im super glad that there's no school for two days!
I feckin need to spend time with math, physics and chemistry.
Bye assholes
the sun warmed up my skin
but a chill still passed through my insides
I walked under clear blue skies
with the wind's gentle caress
It would have been more perfect though, if you were walking beside me

2006-08-07T20:32:00.000-07:00

>>>>>Anberlin- A Day Late

Walked to school with Ginnypang in the morning, and the sweetheart brought me a peanut butter-and-jelly sandwich+Cheese Yanyan.
STOP EATING BECKS.
& my math paper is on monday.
Gee, maybe the school will be set on fire and everything burns down so YAY no math paper :)

& annoying weisiong is really funneh :D
so he's sitting on my right and weinam is seated directly behind him.

me: -taps weisiong's right shoulder
weisiong: -turns to stare at weinam
me: (laughs) its ME!
weisiong: WAHLAO
after a few seconds
weinam: -taps weisiong's shoulder
weisiong: I SAW THAT cb (now he's pissed)
after a few seconds
weinam: -taps weisiong's shoulder again
weisiong: (turns around)
weinam: Its HER -points to me
me: NOOOO I DIDNT ):
after a few seconds
me: -taps weisiong's shoulder
weisiong: Fuck you ah weinam
me: (laughs nonstop)
weinam: OIY
me: its me! HAHAHAHA
weisiong: (stares down at his book)
me: eeeh sorry are you angry!
weisiong: shakes head, not saying anything
me: ): ): !
after a few seconds
me: HAHAHAHAHHAHA -bangs table

2006-08-06T22:35:00.000-07:00

This is to the fucking asswipes who bitched about ana.

She is beautiful, even more so than all of you put together(im glad you guys realised that).
She is intelligent and her maturity goes beyond that of her 19 years(while some of you have already dropped out of school and you fucking losers arent going anywhere in life and your future is all bleak and will probably be short-lived).
She's won big-scale singing competitions, has had professional vocal training and the blessed gift of the voice of an angel.
She can play the guitar (having learnt it herself) better than all you bitches put together.
She writes excellent poetry/songs.
She knows what she wants in life.

Look at you, A*, you are fucking pathetic.
A loser.
A wannabe.
Who are you to even begin commenting on her?
You cant sing, play any instruments, you cant write any poetry, yet you think youre all that.
You live with your boyfriend, you hang out at the studio as if its your own, you hang around with your boyfriend's band(i dont see whats the point when you cant do anything OH wait except give unwanted, useless comments), and you walk in and out of my sister's studio as if its your own.
Youre so fucking jealous, that you take every little oppurtunity to diss my sister.
Youre not even fit to do so, thanks.
Look in the fucking mirror, then now you look at this.

And all the rest of you.
She doesnt need her boyfriend for fame.
She can bloody well get it on her own, seeing with proof, how many times she's rejected offers.
They have something special between them, something none of you can ever come close to.
She doesnt need all of you to be her "friends", when she's got two true ones who will fucking stick by her no matter what.
She'll be the future success that will drive you losers crying into your own fucking shadows.
Leave my sister alone.

2006-08-06T20:16:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>Teagan & Sara- Monday Monday

Random:
I dont see the point of the size S when its as good as a size L.
Gah, the new con3'06 shirts! (theyre black though)

IB meeting today was such a bummer.
I had to read out two whole paragraphs and share what my life is like at home in front of all the expectant parents. shit
& there's four more weeks to go.
Im counting down! pffts.
Watched a bit of OTH and harry potter on neek's ipod before the session.
:D
Charm was super nice today because she gave me half the tube of her chocolates(fine because she didnt want to accompany me to 7-11 to buy more!).

IM WORRIED.
Because me and neek keep looking at hot girls and we always get really excited when we see one....haha.
Ahem, neek, ahem.
Sat for pretty long drinking and talking, then headed home.
This fucktard of a filipino short man kept ()#%#*(&% at me and i almost gave him the finger.
& this is getting to be an awful drag so bye assholes
I'll love you forever and a day always

2006-08-05T11:04:00.000-07:00

"Close your eyes, for your eyes will only tell the truth"

She's been everybody else's girl, maybe one day she'll be her own

2006-08-04T20:49:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>Houston Calls- Where To Start

Four people, music, food, books.
My life.
& frankly speaking, i dont miss my old one.
Im pretty much contented with how things are now and i wouldnt dare to ask for more :)
Went to town with Ginny after school.
Cheddar cheese fries at Galilee Friends are still my favourite!
WE BROUGHT SOME HOME :D
She came over and got smitten with my baby and twohill HAHA what can i say ginnypang.

Uhm, judith is over now.
I think i freaked her friends out... nevermind >:@

Joanne: Hello, love :) Thanks for being such a fart. Walks home with you are almost therepeutic(I DONT KNOW HOW TO SPELL IT) & making you laugh is something i always look forward to!
Ginny: HI GINNYPANG today was fun. Especially the ahem hot angmoh guy who said hi to you :D and lunch and corinne bailey rae time ;)
Neek: Come back already arghghghg. anyway i hope youre having fun climbing up mountains or whatever it is!
Buttttons: I miss you \:

Gaahhhh I want a shonaniboo ( -looks at xt)
And i miss neekoo+charm!
CHARM I HAVENT SEEN YOU IN A MILLION YEARS
bye assholes
Sapphire and faded jeans,
I hope you get your dreams

2006-08-03T21:51:00.000-07:00

Vanilla sunrise, kiss all sorrow goodbye
I want to believe in you
I want to believe all they say isnt true
Bloody roses and chestnuts falling
Beautiful, you are
Skin on skin
Princess of the mistaken

2006-08-03T06:44:00.000-07:00

Sg Idol
Skipped chem remedial yesterday after school, headed home to change and stuff before meeting Neek at her house.
Cabbed to mediacorp, saw Natasha!
After like, damn bloody long.
Haha, and yes.
Watching SI live is so much different from watching it at home.
Joakim was super hawtxzxzx I almost died, while neek went gaga over Jon.
We ended up sitting with Jasmine's family(so we had no choice but to hold this board with her face on it) and we kept covering our face with the board so we wouldnt get caught on live televison HAWHAW.
Took a video of jon but it turned out horrible because we were trying not to get caught :D
cabbed back, called __ and everything's cleared up now.
I think.
Arghghg i dont know who to believe, really.
There's so much i've heard, and then there's you, and how perfect you are.
Okay enough im late for school bye.
oh and have a nice trip neek! i'll miss you till saturday!
<33wind>

2006-08-01T20:53:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>Keane- This Is The Last Time

I pissed off the counsellor so bad today, and she wont be calling me back for anymore crap sessions.
I ate corned beef(burn, becky, burn)
I fell in love with ty--- (HAHA HE'S SO ADORABLE)
I ate peanut butter.(scooped it out with a spoon)
I skipped for ten minutes
I messed up my room so bad my dad threatened not to let me go for Sg Idol tomorrow
I squished sugar
I sang the happy song(fuck)
I ran around in circles
I looked at neek's (excellent) artwork & listened to the smashing pumpkins
I had a pretty awesome afternoon(fine it was just two hours) with __

Bye assholes
And I, I just want to love you

2006-07-31T20:27:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>Lydia- Smile, You've Won

Miss Nicolette Yang Yu Ping got tickets for Sg Idol on wednesday and we're going!
Ah shit, joakim!
Yummoh.

Dusty loveliness & forgotten things, i love going through old things(i found my seashell bracelet under my bed, plus my photoalbum) and remembering all the dumb stuff i used to do.
Like how i threw peanuts at this girl in primary school because we were fighting or something, and i made her cry. HAHAHAHA
Okay fine, maybe not things like that but still(!)

Things I want
----------------
A pair of wings. Silver, preferably.
To see a ghost.
Daddy dearest to shift to another planet.
A cyborg to clean my room. Fine, at least to make it presentable.
Purple or white tulips.
A complete set of LOTR.
A lifetime supply of redbull(its good stuff i swear), ribena and pocky.
Hershey's kisses
New shoes(from barcode)
Senses Fail tshirt

And i got 7/40 for my math test.
Die, becky, die.

2006-07-30T23:44:00.000-07:00

>>>>>Aqualung- Brighter Than Sunshine

HBB was behind me during mass >:(
The baptism thing after was quite alright.
Pizzahut+bubbletea with neek was good, and i swear, i always tend to do/say the wrong things at the wrong time.
Like how i was being so horribly retarded doing the one-to-ten ahlian poses when i realised the waiter was looking at me like WAH I wanted the floor to open up and suck me in or something.

Reached home.....
Watched The Virgin Suicides, played with cherub, watched the grass grow.
I would be happy if something interesting actually happened once in a while :

neek was being really spastic, haha.
i love you number one :)

yet another disappointment,
are you going to stay this way forever?
Its killing me, i swear

2006-07-28T10:28:00.000-07:00

to neek:

Phone conversations with you and WEDNESDAYS (!) are awesome.
especially when we talk and try to laugh over ahem and ahem when we both know deep down its damn ....
Anyhow, i heart you as well, numero uno :]
------------------------
If i told you how i really felt,
would you run away
Leave me here, alone again
you may tell me you love me,
you may tell me you care,
you may tell me you'll always be there
But boy, this heart still longs for so much more
I know its impossible, now i've found out the truth
About you.
Things arent always what they seem
People hide behind smiles and tears
People lie,
i've found that out today
I dont know what i've got myself into,
im falling for this boy, this special boy.
He stole my heart,
He made the whole world seem brighter
He made everything okay again
I wish i hadnt met you
I wish i didnt care
I wish i didnt spend all night crying,
Just wishing you were there

now i know what a fool i've been,
i shouldnt have let myself fall.
I guess this would be my little secret
You, me and ours
I'll just stay by your side and be your friend,
I wouldnt mind, really
As long as i know youre happy inside
I still wonder sometimes
do my promises really mean nothing?
i wished you were my fairytale
i wished for so much more
Till i found out the truth, the lies,
till i found out
About her.

INVASION.

2006-07-27T01:46:00.000-07:00

I heart you :]
xoxo, #1.

2006-07-23T17:12:00.000-07:00

>>>>>David Gray- This Year's Love

Im home :)
The trip was alright, but i didnt get much sleep because of the party yesterday, which ended way past midnight.
Uncle Ralph's place was beautiful.
Huge tents of white and pink in the backyard, 120 people, everyone dressed up, a-w-e-s-o-m-e food, soft waxy candles in the midst of pretty colored marbles in the centre of each table, all the wine you could drink, multi-colored dance floor, the 70's, :D
& shopping was good, except for the fact that Hitler was being such a ........
The place we stayed for the night was just fucking creepy.
Trust him of all people, to get us rooms there.
There was bloody Frangipani's (uh im not too sure about the spelling) outside our window, and the view was just fucked up.
Me and my sister were pretty freaked out COS OF SOME STUFF.
Anyway, time spent with ryan, judith and everyone was good.
OH YES I HAVE A NEW LOVE NAMED DEVONTE :D
Golden hair, deep brown eyes, tanned skin.
He's this beautiful 7 year old kid from Indiana, who's been around for two months and theyre going back next weekend.
He's sooooo sweet and well-mannered, and pretty darned smart.
I think my sister has his pictures!
i'll put them up sometime :)
So yeap here are pictures of me, my sister & ryan.

pictures of my sister & raphael with Nadia, this beautiful 6monthold golden retriever.

2006-07-21T21:41:00.000-07:00

Racial harmony day bloody walking purple curtain >):
Met Neek, then headed down to raffles for tcc.
Macaroni gratins & Oreo Milkshakes are l-o-v-e !
I stole sugar satchets HAHA.
Went to town to get her Polaroid and damn, its so nice :D
bought lemon ice cream at taka and neek hates it (i think) but its like my new favourite
:D shit okay enough about food already.
Met tim and ainsley, who's just...weird.

one train ride with you was better than nothing at all :)

Anyway i just packed my bags, off tomorrow :D
OHYEAH peectures!

I was in Famie's baju kurong...looked super *#&)()(_
& im going to miss neek and my igaloo biscuit.
>):
Bye assholes
I miss you
body and soul so strong, that it takes my breath away
and i breathe you,
into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
because i love you,
whether its wrong or right
& though i cant be with you tonight,
you know my heart is by your side

2006-07-20T17:56:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>Houston Calls- One More Won't Hurt

Its highly possible that im going to drive myself nuts by midnight.
Im fucking panicking, and i know i know i know last minute work never turns out good, so why the hell did i leave this to the last minute again ARGH WHY BECKS WHY.
I cant wait for tomorrow to be over so i can say BYE SINGAPORE (hoyeah) and have two awesome days of new clothes+swimming+party+food+music+time spent with ryan, judith & my sister.
Ate with Natasha, Saleha & Rosie (shit sorry i dont know how to spell your name!) after school.
Thanks Famiezah for your baju kurong.
Racial harmony day's tomorrow.................
ah whatever, its bound to be really boring anyhow.

& I screwed up the math test!
I hate linear equations. I hate linear equations. I hate linear equations.
& there's the social studies test tomorrow, which i cant mug for now because i left my text in school.
WOW HOW SMART BECKY.

With endless thoughts
Lies, deception

2006-07-19T19:42:00.000-07:00

>>>>Jacks Mannequin- Holiday From Real

I wrote you a song today
I wish you could be here, always

Joanne came over after school and her mum gave me tomyam yesterday which was WHOA :D

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21 July, Friday
(Week 4) : Finalized TA with overall planning
-Hard/Soft Copy (Late submission penalized)

4 August, Friday
(Week 6) : Finalized Research
Finalized Development

11 August, Friday
(Week 7) : Finalized Decision Making

25 August, Friday
(Week 9) : Finalized Planning

Term 4 Week 1-2 : Execution & Evaluation

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Then there's the common tests, and homework, and revision.
My stress level is going to increase bit by bit till i burst into a million bubblegum pieces.
Arghghghgh.
Oh yeah and there's this certain shithead who feels so damn insecure of herself, and she's really proud.
She goes around dissing other people without realising that she's contradicting herself.
& she talks about me without looking in the mirror.
WAHHH how nice. :)
Anyway im going back to studying geography now.
There's nothing to make it seem a little less dull now, since MissUniverse here gave the oreo cheesecake to her boyfriend without leaving even one slice for me and the fatcheeks.

I would kill to have you beside me now
Lose myself in your firm hold
Soft lips, deep pink lips

2006-07-18T17:44:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>Motion City Soundtrack-Everything Is Alright

Is it so wrong to just want to be left alone for a little while?
Just to read a book, or get lost in myself for a bit.
Does being normal mean having to talk to the whole world 24/7, going on about who's-with-who or how a certain teacher is so bloody biased, or what youre going to do after school or at night, or whats the latest fashion faux pas?
I hate school.

We're just friends.
F-r-i-fucking-ends

2006-07-17T20:09:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>Van Morrison- Moondance

Started on Cross Your Heart, Connie Pickles :D
Weiru came over after school with lunch and WE WERE SUPPOSED TO STUDY but of course, we ended up fooling around & i think she's a bit sore from all the jumping and me sitting on her back and everything HEH HEH.
My simple-minded sweet mother met Weiru.
Her reaction was fuggin funny HAHAHA i bet she was thinking, Rebecca gave me the impression she was a really nice and studious-looking girl, whats..this?!
Hahaha but yep everything was okay after they talked and all.

I dont know why everything hit me so bad yesterday night.
Till he called(it may just have been coincidence,wishful thinking on my part) and i couldnt talk much at first because the words just couldnt pass through.
Angel.
Thankyou, for being such a darling.
Everytime i find myself falling you always manage to lift me up again & make everything better. I dont know honestly, if i deserve such a good friend.
I havent been the best of friends and im really scared this time round because i know real friends are so hard to come by.
Then i found you.....and everything's like, different?
the adorable smile that lights up your whole face, your small kisses on my forehead, your patience and understanding, and your hugs, shit it drives me crazy :)
I wouldnt want to lose the awesome friend i found in you.
Love you, igaloooo :D

I wouldnt ask for more
What you see is what you get.
Right?

2006-07-16T21:27:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>Everlast- Broken

Mmh, i've got the pictures taken on friday with sharon.

BAHAHAHA

School tomorrow.
Im thinking of ponning again but i'll probably get into beeeg shit as the office started calling my mum instead of the home phone number, fugger.

Oh well, i guess this is as good as it can ever get.
Who am i to ask for anything else?
Bye assholes
This heart still cries, it longs for more
Will we always stay a secret
I dont know what youre after

2006-07-15T21:44:00.000-07:00

Smosh is the sex says:
hey fart

Flickt { & you make me burn says:
what shmart

Smosh is the sex says:
talk to me please. fuckin bored

Flickt { & you make me burn says:
WAHHHHHH you only talk to me when youre bored right fucker

Smosh is the sex says:
ehs no, no, no, i would talk to ya anytime barbie

Flickt { & you make me burn says:
Ha. bull. go kiss the toilet or something

Smosh is the sex says:
but i want to talk to youuuuu -whines-

Flickt { & you make me burn says:
Now, thats more like it HAHAHAHAH : D

Smosh is the sex says:
so what you doing huh

Flickt { & you make me burn says:
what do you think im doing?

Smosh is the sex says:
talking to a zillion guys?

Flickt { & you make me burn says:
not exactly, but im talking to a horribly annoying one right now who thinks he's mr macho

Smosh is the sex says:
...whatever

Flickt { & you make me burn says:
Hehhh. okay. at what time do most people go to the dentist?

Smosh is the sex says:
oh shit here we go again. erh two plus?

Flickt { & you make me burn says:
your answer didnt make any sense. anyway. people go to the dentist at TOOTH-HURTY(2.30)

Smosh is the sex says:
erhhhhhhhhh....

Flickt { & you make me burn says:
HAHAHAHAHA joke

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Heh, pissing Nardeedoo off is L.O.V.E!
Anyway,talked to Tammy and yeah, realised we're both having lalas now.
Dont dwell on it dear, im sure things will get better.
Whatever it is, you can talk to me :)

2006-07-15T13:11:00.000-07:00

*today's entry below
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This is for you, egyptian-like doll

Its been so long
So long since forever
Smiles and pinky-promises
Where once there was warmth
All thats left is bitter regret
We pick up the courage to move on
Because these tears we cry have come too late
& when you face the end alone
You are lost,
You can never go home
A home where the heart is
Where a special friendship once forged with such fierce bonding
I loved you,
I love you,
I will always love you
You have your life and i have mine
I have moved on,
Tomorrow is a better day
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>>>>>>>Sherwood- The Summer Sends Its Love

The birthday girl got 3rd overall yesterday :)
I ate so much i think i put on 5kg yesterday :) :(
My brother gave me a paper ball yesterday :)
I bought pocky yesterday :)
Then.
I missed SOMEBODY so bad yesterday :(
I slammed my foot on the wall yesterday :(
I couldnt sleep for hours yesterday :(
Phoebe's traumatised :(
My maid burnt my skirt yesterday :(
was totally random but yeah \:

I know we can never happen
I dont know if i should smile because we're friends,
Or cry because thats all we'll ever be

2006-07-14T11:10:00.000-07:00

>>>>>LOTR Soundtrack- The Fields of the Pelennor

I skipped school today.
Didnt feel like going since i knew i was just going to be pms-ing again, and i'd probably get on everybody's nerves and be the biggest bitch ever.
So yeah i slacked around, watching old movies that i never seem to get sick of.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEEKOHLET YANG YU PING !
&& GOOD LUCK FOR TODAY! GIVE IT YOUR BEST :D

Im scared to wake up one day
& find that he's not there anymore
Saranghaeyo :)

2006-07-13T16:40:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>Emiliana Torrini- Gollum's Song

Woke up really late today and cabbed to school.
It was $5.50 because of the stupid peak hour $2 charge (haha im such a scrooooge) and i guess i wasted my money >):
Simin got sent home & weiru was late again so they didnt come for PE.
Sharon, amirah & huiqi didnt do PE and pangseh-ed me >):
I screwed up my physics test.

Anyway im really happy for Neek because she got in for tomorrow!
Hhahah :D Yay
& there's no reason why you should try to make excuses,
to make me feel alright

2006-07-12T19:19:00.000-07:00

where once was light
now darkness falls
where once was love
love is no more
dont say goodbye
dont say I didnt try

Through a heart so broken, I lie exposed to my oppressor's scorn

2006-07-12T13:14:00.000-07:00

Its f&n and we're supposed to be doing research and shit but NOOO im blogging ;D
Weiru, simin and sharon (mostly weiru) locked me in the toilet cubicle after recess!
LIKE HI YA'LL ARE SO MEAN.
I was stuck there with the disgusting sanitary bin(and whats inside) plus i kept screaming but they wouldnt let me out >:(
so i sat on the toilet bowl and waited for them to give up, and when they finally slammed the door open, it was so near my face that i screamed even more.
Haha.

in the arms of an angel

2006-07-11T20:28:00.000-07:00

Will arrogance and unhappiness get us anywhere.
The walk home made me feel so much better.
Leaves glistened and the sun shone through the grey clouds.
It was really beautiful, and it just made me feel like, i dont know, something i havent felt in ages.
I wonder,
what would you do if i told you how much i feel for you

2006-07-10T19:37:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>Mazzy Star- Wild Horses

WAHHHH today was such a bitch.
Stoned in most lessons and didnt talk to anybody, plus I got really wasted in math & Chemistry killed me >):

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAN! <33

Band practice after math remedial sucked big time.
Sir wants to resign in two weeks.
.............................................................

Anyway.
Im bloody pissed at the fucker who tagged Neek's lj.
Whoever you are, please get a life.
This is none of your business.
Whatever happened between me and marie, thats it.
& to all of you reading this, i would really appreciate it if you just left us alone and not bring up the subject anymore, because youre making it worse.
And dont get neek or anyone else involved.
They have nothing to do with it.

In this sweet madness
Oh, this glorious sadness

2006-07-09T20:33:00.000-07:00

Okay, change of mood.
My sister came home with a strawberry-and-cream doughnut & The Permanent Rose by Hilary McKay for me.
Just the happy pill i needed :)

2006-07-09T18:41:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>Hawthorne Heights-Audrey In Sacramento

Today was another one of those days when you just cant seem to get your ass off the sheets in the morning, and you wake up feeling all fucked up.
Went to church & saw ahemahem :D
It was off for ISP after lunch, and there was nothing to do so i just stood and stared at the stupid carpark.
Talked to Marcella and this random rciy guy(SORRY FORGOT YOUR NAME), so yeah i talked to both of them till Henry made me go in the room \:

Infant Baptism was pretty alright though i almost fell asleep.
Mrs Nelson was one of the pregnant mothers! (4th child shiyat :D)

Called Neek at home!
Thanks for being such a dear, listening to me, helping me with math and all (:

My hot sister :-)

And i bring myself back to the beginning,
Where i saw the most perfect boy in his black pullover,
With the most beautiful smile.
How i wish he were mine

2006-07-09T09:32:00.000-07:00

He drowns in his dreams
He's as damned as he seems
& more heaven than a heart could hold
Down in adoration falling

2006-07-08T22:58:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>Tyler Hilton- Picture Perfect

Met neek after band investiture and we got honey milk tea!(after craving for it for it since last week HAWHAWHAW)
& the girl was so amusing i swear, with all her pearl-spitting business.
HAHA i shall not go into detail, but it was just horribly retarded :D

Reached church and went straight up to the attic where I climbed out the window with Manda and Nat!
It was so coolxzxzx and i wanted to sit on the ledge but the MAN told us we were playing with fire >):
Anyway.......
I got into Infant Baptism!
And it starts tomorrow at like 2?
Ugh.

Talking to __ on the phone now (:
Oh and on a totally random note,
silver balloons make Becky a happy kid.
:D

2006-07-08T07:15:00.000-07:00

Tears.
Anger.
Sadness.
Disappointment.
My familiars.

This whole thing is so stupid,
how one thing twists itself into another.
How emotions change so quickly.
How I feel like nothing else will be okay.
How I know youre hurting inside.
how this friendship has ended.

Life's a bitch

2006-07-07T20:49:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>Senses Fail- Buried A Lie

Thankyou for the curved ruler and ribena,
I loved spending time with you though the yakult man chased us away :)
I guess i feel better nowadays because i've got a friend like him.
Someone who's just... there for me [:

I dont know what he's after
But he's so beautiful

2006-07-06T20:03:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>Coldplay- For You

I had an awesome morning.
The weather was cold & wet, exactly how i liked it.
& one phone call that made me smile.

Peanut butter sandwiches and oreos with Jogina during mt,
slacking with the girls during pe,
taking pictures with Putra in class,
lime juice & chocolate sticks during recess,
made me a very happy girl today.
:)

2006-07-05T22:18:00.000-07:00

Went to Ikea after school with sharon to look for stuff :)
Oh, AND I CUT MY HAIR SHIT I WANT IT BACK.

One phone call i've been looking forward to all day long,
One phone call which made my day light up
One phone call that made it all worthwhile,
i just talked to you like six minutes ago,
& i miss you already

2006-07-04T15:28:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>>>>Elliott Smith- Between The Bars

Slept during most of the lessons, except for Physics, where seepooleng tried so hard to make us pay attention.
He did the Bell Jar experiment, and even played for us ABC on his violin.
I have to say, the poor guy tried so hard that it was really amusing to just sit and watch him.
& how his eyeballs seemed to pop out every 3 minutes, and how short he is, and how he always wears the same thing, and how he seems so genuinely interested in how a tuning fork can produce a high or low frequency, and how he has pimples all over his oily red face HAHA okay.

Drink up, baby, stay up all night
With the things you could do, you won't but you might
The potential you'll be that you'll never see
The promises you'll only make

Drink up with me now and forget all about
The pressure of days, do what I say
And I'll make you okay and drive them away
The images stuck in your head

People you've been before that you
Don't want around anymore
That push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still

Drink up, baby, look at the stars
I'll kiss you again, between the bars
Where I'm seeing you there, with your hands in the air
Waiting to finally be caught

Drink up one more time and I'll make you mine
Keep you apart, deep in my heart
Seperate from the rest, where I like you the best
And keep the things you forgot

People you've been before that you
Don't want around anymore
That push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still

2006-07-03T20:42:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>>>>The Wreckers- The Good Kind

Ate duckrice with neek today :D
listened to When The Stars Go Blue on the bus omgxZXzxzxzx SO NICE GAHHH
Chilled at her house after (:

Im tired of hiding behind these blind eyes
Im tired of this smile that I dont even recognize

2006-07-02T00:21:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>>Mazzy Star- Bright as Yellow

Nothing else can make me feel better than time spent with someone who can actually seem to relate to me, for once (:
Felt pretty bad because there was yet another tiff between me and her.
Everything seems rocky between us now, and it just makes me i dont know, sad.
Skipped youth mass because i was in no bloody mood to go after ....
So i met neek, manda & naat and we went to IceKimo to chill :)

Random
My sister is being such an inconsiderate bum now

Neek & i got my hamster shavings and bought a mango smoothie at icebox after that :D
I love you as well but i wont waste your time anymore
Goodbye, bestfriend

2006-07-01T00:53:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>Mazzy Star-Into Dust

Met neek & headed to Victoria Theatre to get tickets for The Cure.
Slacked at O'Briens, AND I STOLE SUGAR SACHETS AGAIN YOU :D
Nuggets, fries and icecream with neek by the water after The Cure was good
:-)

Bye assholes
Do you know, just how much i feel

2006-06-28T21:58:00.000-07:00

There's just this one special boy,
He always makes me smile
& make it seem like everything will be alright again
He stole my heart away

Okay neek's competition is on 14 July at Yishun Stadium.
My hottaye (: who's going to be in a black and red leotard with awesome makeup.
Ah shit so hAwTxZXZXzx!
Hahah go neek, give it your best shot, because no matter what i'll be there cheering you on <3

hungry? :D

Miss GinnyPang, as impish as ever:

Her $46 COINPOUCH wtf

2006-06-26T19:47:00.000-07:00

& this is the paul frank thing ginny spent $46 on D:

Love you girls :)
Oh yeah, HAPPY FIFTEENTH SIMIN<3>
I envy him sometimes,
because he seems so complete

2006-06-26T06:28:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>>>Bullet For My Valentine- All These Things I Hate

SHIT SCHOOL IS STARTING IN FORTY-FREAKING-FIVE MINUTES.
SHIT SHITHISHSIHIH
SHTHSIHIT

REBECCA DOES NOT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL!
>:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

I dont want to go for counselling
I dont want to see the disgusting bOyxZxzXZxzx
I dont want to see mr siva
I dont want to see mrs whelan OR HEAR HER SPEAK
I dont want the endless wait for school to finish
I dont want the short recesses
I dont want to see everybody!
>:( :( :(

Nooooooooooooooo
-pulls out hair

2006-06-25T15:29:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>Smashing Pumpkins- By Starlight

Mhm, strawberry doughnuts and lazy sunday afternoons make a perfect combination :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARAHRAHRAH I LOVE YOU
:D

AND IM HORRIBLY BORED NOW so I came up with a list of things to do today HEH HEH.
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1530-1600hrs.
Neopets HAHA :D
1600-1615hrs
Watch Lynch
1615-1630hrs
Skip
1630-1800hrs
Read The Fellowship of The Ring
1800-1930hrs
Watch The Suite Life of Zack and Cody
1930-2130hrs
HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL !!
2130-2200hrs
Start on my english homework :D
2200-2240hrs
Start my pathetic attempts at Math
2245-whatever
Call him :D:D:D:D
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Thick raven locks and dark brown eyes,
Sunkissed skin,
He has the most beautiful smile

2006-06-24T20:06:00.000-07:00

It doesnt help that i think im falling for someone.
& im not supposed to.

she might think my life is so perfect but its not.
They fought in the car again, and he was being fucking unreasonable as usual.
I mean like dude, wake up.
This family shit youre trying to implement is not working out.
You should realise that you have a 19 year old daughter as well, and at that age everyone else in fucking singapore doesnt have curfews.
Most of them anyway.
Whats the point of making us go out together when we dont talk?
Me and tasia just bitch about life, mummy's quiet and you just shout at everyone.
I sat in the car and watched them quarrel and yell at each other.
I watched my little brother eat his fries, indifferent.
I felt really sad for him as he's under the impression that we're a happy family.
As well as the fact that he's going to grow up and feel miserable living with them,
because me and tasia would be gone by then.

Then i read her blog.
& wow, it was such a perfect way to end my saturday.

2006-06-24T00:47:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>Placebo- Pure Morning

Met Jogina & ginny today :)
Gny blew $46 on a paul frank COIN POUCH(or was it a wallet) and another $44 on overalls.
LIKE WAH OKAY haha.

Spent a lot of time in this awesome art shop.
I swear if i had the ching i would have bought the whole shop down.
Mhm, read Why Men Marry Bitches at Borders.
Fking cool shit (:
Then it was off to the esplanade and ginny went mad over this dance group.
Dinner at Al Dante was bloody good, Calzone pizza and Bittersweet Chocolate Fondue :D
Meeting marie tomorrow.
No cat class!
:D Yay

Bye assholes
He is gorgeous <33
& it feels like he's an angel sent to me,
to make everything seem better again

2006-06-23T09:22:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>Angels and Airwaves- Take The Stairs

Didnt get much sleep yesterday RAHHHH horrible.
Talked to him and ran at night & I swear, its almost therapeutic.
Okay on a random note, IM FEELING RATHER HAPPY TODAY BECAUSE my brother gave me his Nickelodeon stickers and my darling grandpa gave me uhm...
a Hello Kitty pink toothbrush GAHGFHAHF.
& yes i abhor both hello kitty and the color pink, but since its from him,
>:D

Would you fix this broken mess
I wish you were mine
But i guess i'll never tell you
I dont know if i should smile because we're friends,
Or cry because thats all we'll ever be

2006-06-22T16:16:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>>>Senses Fail- Save Yourself

Pastamania for lunch with joanne after band practice was okay, but i felt like throwing up most of the time >:(
Met Rashid! we just sat and chilled for about half an hour before heading home.

Empty voices calling out inside my head
I close my eyes and think of you
I remember all the times we used to have
You told me you would always be there for me
What happened to that

You were my best friend
I loved you like no other
You told me you i meant the world to you
What happened to that

Because all things gold never last
This hole in my heart just keeps getting bigger
Not as important to you as before,
I lie inside myself and think of what used to be

Cold hugs and wan smiles
The shadow of a deep friendship
A friendship so dear
A boy i loved with my whole heart
Where are you now

What was once will never be
I've lost a brother and a friend
But we all move on
Because all things gold never last

And now as i sit here in the dark
I let myself go
Wet drops carress my cheeks
I know this has to end
But darling babycakes,
What happened to us

2006-06-21T22:43:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>>Smashing Pumpkins- Porcelina Of The Vast Oceans

Damn i swear smashing pumpkins is <3
Visited michelle today & i just realised that i've been living in denial for three years.
HAHA marie :D
Ate meepok! HAHAH whatever i know.
its just that i've been craving for it ever since Neek wanted to eat it on saturday BALLS
Spent today with mia.
Slacksleepmovie :)

Okay this is for you NEEK [:
Hello, you poser.
Please stop copying Nicolette Yang and acting like you dont.
Stick your nose somewhere else instead of going around trying to be like her.
Yes, we all know youre hot.
So be orignal.

Raspberry icecream and beating hearts<3

2006-06-20T21:41:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>Smashing Pumpkins- Galapogos

Found out about xiaodoudou through tammy's blog.
People say everything happens for a reason and maybe she was just destined for a better life someplace else and I really admire her :)
http://xiaodoudou.blogspot.com

I cant stop thinking of you no matter what they say
Though this is only the beginning.
Because when i talk to you,
I feel something that i havent been feeling in really long.